1) He told her to kiss him, So she did

2) She didn't know when she'd lost her heart but she found it in his sleeping arms

3) She did everything she could

SO... I'm struggling. Get ready for a stream of consciousnesssssssssss

I keep realizing that I'm attaching these labels to Lily and Inara: weak/afraid/courageous/strong Which is exactly what I'm trying to call attention to.... or is it?

LABELS
I want people to know that they both think they're strong.
They both think they're doing the right thing. And that's just who they are, they were created that way.

ME OR THEM?
I keep pouring parts of myself into each of these characters which I guess was only to be expected, but I'm not sure that's really what I want.

I think people are automatically assume that Lily and Inara are supposed to be personas of myself.... ARE THEY?
 I want to say no, because I can't really say that they are.
I suppose I'm most like Lily, but there are moments where I'm nothing like either Lily or Inara, but I also wouldn't call those moments "Mia moments"

There are days when I wear the Lily t shirt and I think to myself, "I am Lily."

There are moments when I'm putting on makeup and getting ready to step out of my comfort zone and I think into the mirror "You are Inara."

Does that say something? I am Lily and my reflection is Inara. Should that be the point I'm making? Is that what I want to say?

Figuration
I don't know if I want them to be real or like the spirits in A Christmas Carol. I want them to stand out from the rest of the world. I